Sunday, October 19, 2008

I choose life.

"Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life..."
-from the movie, Trainspotting.

I have never seen the movie but came across these lines few years ago. It immediately resonated with me. It neatly surmises our middle class existence. At that time, I remember I scorned at that mundane existence.

Today, couple of years wiser, I see how hard each seemingly mundane step is to achieve . I don't know about rotting away and being an embarrassment to the brats god-willing I will spawn, but apart from it, I am all for stuffing junk food and watching the mind numbing television.

Picking each piece of furniture after fantasizing about it for years, craving for it and when it finally makes an appearance in my life, feel as if I have achieved Nirvana only to crave for the next piece for dream.. that is the cycle of life as I see it. That is all I want out of life.

labels:teenage angst gone, pooye poochu, i am just one among the billion and i am happy being that.


  1. Enjoyed the last para of the post. The role of normalcy is often under estimated - Suman

  2. that was spot on:)

    Ps:does suman=

  3. Wait, you had a blog and never left a link before?

  4. Yes Sachita.


    Sometimes I get lazy about entering my blog link.

  5. Voila, look who commented in my blog:) Amrita, the blog is very shy esp. when commenting on well written blogs such as indiequill. so..

    Just wanted to confirm:)

  6. wow. first i thought the expletive lanuguage in the first para was used by you. I was little taken back initially ;-).

    Suman hit the nail. We often realize the value of normal, peaceful existence only when things go out of hand.

  7. N,
    :), normalcy requires a lot of work is what I have realized.